Week 22

Holy crap- how did we get this far? I am still trying to wrap my head around being pregnant and all of the experiences yet to come and you’re telling me I’m in month FIVE?! Only four months left to go. I can only imagine how new mothers feel about time, when I’m already wanting to slow this pregnancy down. I used to tell Tex every day when he was a puppy “stop growing!” and I have a feeling I’ll be saying the same to baby girl when she starts developing before my eyes 😍.

We got some good news this week! I’ve been struggling with finding a doctor and a place I want to birth our daughter, and just recently was informed by OU Medicine that they were unable to reach a contract with Blue Cross Blue Shield, my insurance provider, so our birth with them would’ve ended up being an out of pocket expense (ie. hella expensive). I wasn’t a huge fan on their family medical center to begin with AND to top it all off they’ve had me see three different doctors in the last three months. I honestly felt like I was just another chore to them being passed along. Not the vibe you want when you’re bringing a new life into the world. I won’t go into all the negative details but I will be cancelling my upcoming appointments with them because I got accepted as a new patient with a doctor in Norman. Hopefully the initial visit goes well, as I reaaaaally want some stability before it’s due date.

Tex (🐾) has always shown an interest in my abdomen when I’ve been pregnant. He did it during our last pregnancy before I miscarried, and so when he did it back in December again I looked at Ben and said “We do buy a pregnancy test?”.. even though we both knew 🥰.

Current favorite part of pregnancy: Feeling her movements more strongly now, as opposed to “I think that might’ve been?” movement.
Current loathed part of pregnancy: Mood swings. All the damn time, and they’re very intense. Plus I can’t sleep well at night.

Pregnancy Rage

Pregnancy Rage

I honestly had no clue it even existed until I found myself angry at the entire world, slamming doors, throwing dishes into the dishwasher and wanting to scream bloody murder for no apparent reason. Most days it is manageable and then there are nights like last night when I get home from work and have to clean up around the house, put the dishes up, and cook myself dinner at 9pm while Ben is fast asleep and it bubbles up inside of me like the nightmare that I know is waiting to happen.

I’m really hoping that the hormones will settle down after birth, because if this is a long term thing then Ben might want to consider living separately LOL.

Has anyone else experienced pregnancy rage? What did you do to combat it in the moment?

Breathing exercises are not enough for me and honestly sometimes on the road I feel like I should pull over and calm myself down because I can’t see straight enough to drive with all the other idiots on the road in OK. I thought Texas drivers were bad, but they’re something else up here. It was a trigger before I got pregnant and now it’s almost every time I get in the car. Which obviously isn’t safe for me or baby girl.

When I’m not experiencing rage everything else seems manageable, but it always comes out of the blue, VERY unexpected. I’ve never really had anger issues so it’s an entirely new emotion for me to be dealing with on a regular basis.

I’m going to start implementing a bit more meditation, as well as trying some prenatal yoga and getting proper “me time” before the baby arrives.

Fast growing

I caved and purchased some maternity clothes online today from Shein. Never bought anything from them before, and although I’m not an advocate for fast fashion, it felt very fitting to purchase some cheaper items I’ll only be wearing for the next couple of months. Ya girl ain’t made of money.

As I’ve started growing quite quickly now, I realized that summer is fast approaching as well. If I don’t drown in my own sweat hopefully these outfits will help keep me cool… and look cool 😛 (side note: are mom jokes a thing? I feel like that was a mom joke.)

Super excited about the color of this shirt. I also have a sneaking suspicion that I may still be in love with wearing it well after my pregnancy. It also comes in several other colors.

This came as a set and I’m really hoping it’s as comfortable and cute as it looks. The bottoms are also adjustable so they can keep up with little one’s demand regarding space in my belly. I may be living in this get up come June.

I showed this dress to Ben and he started laughing. I asked what was wrong with the dress and he goes “what in the heck is a ruffle cuff?!” I think he thought the name was more entertaining than the thought of me looking cute in the dress. Boys and their priorities 😉

I wasn’t entirely sure about this one after I had placed the order. Definitely not my typical color scheme, but a colleague of mine reminded me how cute it would be with my YRU white platform sneakers. Can’t wait to see it in person!

Now these are the ones I am most excited about! My first thought went directly to the neon biker shorts from American Apparel and how cute those are paired with a bigger tee. Thinking I can do the same with these. My work uniform has been adjusted while I’m pregnant and I wear long leggings at work. I think these will be the first thing I change into when I get home from work on a daily basis though!

I am not made for heat so I am hoping that being pregnant during the summer isn’t too difficult. If anything it gives me a full year to get my beach body back, right? LOL as if that’s going to be my priority.

Oh Baby!

Oh Baby!

Ecstatic and blessed to announce we’re having a baby girl late July/early August of 2021!

Currently halfway through the second trimester so things are definitely looking up compared to the first trimester where I spent the majority of the time with my head in the toilet. After the loss of our pregnancy last spring, I have been dealing with some health issues so combined with the morning sickness we were unsure how we were going to fare this time around. I decided to keep the pregnancy to myself for the entire first trimester due to sheer fear of not having a baby to announce after all. Look at us now! Ben + Me = 3 😉

Ben and I both cried the first time we heard her heartbeat. During the sonogram it was mind blowing to see her spine had begun to form. And those cute little feets 🥰

From Dad to be: We just know it takes a village and are thankful for any and all help we’ve received in this journey and just know we can’t thank you enough for the wisdom, advice, and items that will help us in our newfound daily lives.

Super excited for this next chapter and to finally be able to share with you all my pregnancy among other things to come!